teja tag me again..heheh =)

1. Do you think you're hot?
HAHAHAHA.. Sometime. Im a simple girl actually =)

2. Upload a favourite picture of you.

3. Why you like that picture?
heheh.. sbb 1st time jd amik pic sndri.. =)

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
hurmm..last year..xnot remember lol..since we need to boycott pizza..so? =( need sacrifice for Islam sake

5. The last song you listen to?
jatuh cinta lagi..


6. What are you doing now besides this?
watching tv

7. What name do you prefer besides yours?
Lily

8. Tag 5 people.
i dont want to tag any people..hehehe..sorry =)
but maybe long,ell,michele,xoxo and ina-hanisah

9. Who is number 1?
my long..

10. Number 2 is having a relationship with who?
i dont know

11.Say something about number 5.
my ex-schoolmate..she very nice person..

12. How about number 4.
not gurl but beautiful..trust me..hahahaha

13. Who is number 3?
kang fairuz's gurl fren..hahahaha..hopefully they will getting married as soon as possible..kuikuikui..

eNvy..

We may envy people for what they have,

but we wouldn't want to be them.

So, i guess, just let them be............

opps..sorry..

"Dont make the SORRY word as your habit coz it will lost the feelings of apology when U utter the word..Its become an easy way out to run away from troubles caused by your mistakes..But then U should realize the true meaning of this word............." but i'm always make the sorry word as my habit lol..huhuhu..so? hmm

autUmN iN mY hEArt..

Season, one of the four natural divisions of the year, spring, summer, fall, and winter, in the North and South Temperate zones. Each season, beginning astronomically at an equinox or a solstice, is characterized by specific meteorological or climatic conditions. i love autumn season..why? dunno but autumn is a miracle for me..
Autumn brings lots of changes. The trees begin to change colors, bringing a beautiful array of different colored foliage, which eventually drops off into yards. It also brings cooler temperatures.
When the leaves begin to change on the trees, the scenery are covered with a beautiful array of gorgeous colored trees. The forests look like they are ablaze - a gorgeous site to behold!The end of Autumn and colder temperatures in North America cause the birds to migrate South. It also brings about the freezing of the ponds and lakes and streams in much of the country.I love this season and the scenery during autumn..the leaves and all of them..autumn bring lots of meaning for me..only my heart know the answer..huhu

mY fiRst Tag..from Teja..huhu

1) When do you want to get married?
25 years old and above..
2) What do you want the most now?
go back to my hometown coz now is holiday but im still here..ahaha
3) Who is the person you trust the most?
my mum and my family members, of course!
4) Do you think you have enough confidence?
sometime yes sometime no..
5) If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
naik belon panas on my wedding day..hahahahah
6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes..but rainbow make me feel sad..it has a story behind the rainbow..huhu
7) What are you afraid to lose right now?
Afraid to lose everyone that I love and all my senses..
8) Do you believe in eternal love?
maybe...huhuhu
9) If you meet someone you love,will you confess to him/her?
Maybe yes but maybe no too..
10) list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you
Busy, Glamour and my new neighbour..heheheh
11) What are the requirements do you wish from the other half?
loyal,loyal and loyal..respect me and my family..love me..of course la kan
12) What type of person you hate the most?
liar = not loyal n not sincere
13)Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yup mostly but sometime unexpected thing happen..huhu
14) what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family and Friends = my happiness and Allah..of course la kan
15) Do you find the needs to have a boyfriend?
yes, but not for this time..im prefer being single now..
16) At this point in time, would you rather be a heartbreaker or heartbroken?
I dont want to be both of heartbreaker or heartbroken anymore..
17) What kind of friend do you want to be in your friend's eye?
A loyal and sincere friend..
18) Describe the person who tagged you in 6 words...
Teja is brave and responsibility girl
19) the place you wanted to go most with your loved ones?
Hawaii..but b4 this..now i dont know..
20) the people you wanna tag with this
khairunie
gossip gurl - xoxo..hehehe
sis khairina
ell pn tp teja da tag ell..so its ok..hehehe
Long jg..huhuh

tOLonG pK k!

xd la geram sgt pn tp sj nak tls smthing kt cni..td ak, rumate dan ana cuci toilet..mau tak ny kmi da xtahan gn thp kbrshn toilet..coz after xd air dn bla da air da blk toilet tu xpnh dicuci..da xlalu rseny ak nk gn toilet2 tu n shower2 tu..

ak xksh lh ak cuci tu lgpn ak mmg bsn xd pe nak buat time2 cti ni..nk wat asgment mls..hehe..tp yg buat ak geram ny ialh skp penghuni kat cni..kat aras bwh ni bkn la semua pn yg blk..da lg kalo dikira dalam 10 org@mgkn lbh dr 10 org yg tak balik..tp kmi 3org yg bertungkus lumus mbersihkan toilet tu..toilet tu xla besar sgt tp kalo yg da 3mgu tak cuci phm2 jela da la b4 tu xd air..kmi bersih dr jam 10.30pg - jam 1.30petang..nsb la last2 2 da jass dn niza dtg tlg kejap..time ksh lah yer..

dalam pada itu, ada yg datang msk toilet tp just tgk je..da yg datang mandi je gan takde perasan ny gna tandas dan shower..sedangkan kmi time tu mc berkerja keras kerjakan toilet2 n shower2 tu..bukan la nak menunjuk ke apa tapi kurang2nya bantu la cik kak oi..kita sma2 gna ba.. dan org lum g siap cuci hormat la ckit..ni buat xtau je gan selamber guna..

slama ni pn pa yg ak dpt perhatikan, rmi kalo cuci bkn btl2,stakat sapu2 lantai dan buang sampah..dinding tak penah cuci..ak memang pantang org kalo wat keje setakat melepaSkan batuk ditangga..alang2 ba da cuci, kc cuci btl2 la..haih..xphm ak org zaman sekarang..time guna pandai tp bila suro cuci xmau..ak mengelaskan org sebegini sbg golongan "pemalas+selfish" da juga ak dgr spesis yg tak nak cuci toilet gn shower blk2 nak cuci blik cuci, cuci pantry gan sapu koridor je..tp time mndi pndi plak mdi kat tolilet gan shower..knp xmdi je kat pantry tu..nsb bk aras ak takde wat 'dajal' cam 2..

itu blm lg msk bab yg suke tngl smph, btol kosong kat toilet..wlpn kta da mkck yg ley tlng bersihkn tp kcian la ckit kat diaorg..lu pye smph lu buang sndri r bep..tlg la be matured ckit n rasional ckit..sma2 guna sma2 bersih la..itu pn untuk keselesaan brsma..nama je pmpn tp...bak kate Nabil ' Luu pk r sndri!' huh..

gErhaNa matAhari..

hari ni berlaku gerhana matahari..ak ni pun baru usai melihat gerhana matahari dari aras tiga, wisma mawar..blok asrama ak..fuh cantik tp time ak pg tgk td gerhana tu dah nak hbs sbb dia start jam 4..tp aku lupa..jam 5 bru ak pg tgk..tp at least ak still nmpk la kejadian tersebut..cantik dan indah..itu yang dapat aku ungkapkan..tp gerhana yang paling cntk ak pnh lihat ialah semasa ak di tahun 5 sek rendah dlu..mse tu bulan btl2 berada di hadapan matahari membentuk lngkaran cincin..if sblm ni ak tgk gmbr tp time tu ak tgk dgn pancaindera yang dipinjamkan Allah kpd ku cndri..Allah itu Maha Agung..mencipta sesuatu yang cukup indah..tak dapat ditiru manusia ciptaan itu..

namun dalam keghairahan melihat gerhana mesti ingat juga..sebagai umat Islam gerhana membawa petanda bahawa kiamat sudah dekat..kerana gerhana matahari atau bulan merupakan petanda2 untuk berlaku kiamat..gerhana sepatutnya berlaku dalam jarak masa yang lama..spt 50 thn sekali..tp skrg fenomena alam ini sering melewati kita..adakah ini petanda yang bumi kita ini sudah tua dan xmpu lg utk bertahan..dan menghitung masa untuk musnah..

di kala bercakap atau berbicara tentang ini..ak sering bertanya kepada diri ak..bersediakah sudah ak untuk menghadapinya..bersedia sudah kh ak untk mati..bersedia sudahkah ak untuk di hisab nti..ternyata tidak..amalan hdpku mc blm ckp untk ku mghdpi semua itu..ak mc perlu byk melakukan amal kebajikan..mc perlu mcri, mngli dn mpejari ilmu yg mbwa ku ke syurga hakiki..

Ya Allah
aku tak layak masuk ke syurga- Mu
namun tak pula
aku sanggup ke neraka -Mu

droWIng...

Pepatah Inggeris pernah berkata, Familiarity breeds contempt. Bermaksud, bila kita terlalu dekat tiada lagi kebaikan dan keburukan sikap masing2 yang dapat dilindungi, hilang rasa kekaguman dan penghormatan..

Yup thats right..thats what im feel now after 4years live here..i think i not suitable to live in one place for a long time period..im easily to get bored and more less adaptation with people surrounding and environment..

what thing that always in my mind now is about finished up my study quickly and go far, far away from this place and people here..because im alredy feel like almost cannot breathe anymore to live here..here is not my place..people here are not my buddies at all..just some of them..sometime i feel like drowning to stay live here..but Alhamdullillah im still can stand with this and survive..hoping for a miracle..maybe..but im prefer if i can stay forever and go back to peninsular malaysia..there was my place..my heart was there not here..huhuhu..sorry sabah..here is nice place to visit, to explore, to be treasured but not plece to stay forever for me..

"hujan emas di negeri orang,hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik negeri sendiri"

assignment..

Pck and Practical 2 & 3 - earth n space

Presentation - Budaya dan Pembelajaran (group 6)
- Sediakan portfolio & lengkapkan..

my PoiNt oF vieW

friendship is 1 of the hardest things to keep coz somewhere in the middle new fren may come.. some frens are worth to be thrown..some r good to keep..some r to be treasured forever.. so its normal when people come and go anytime in ur life..may be it will make u feel like irritating..but its ok..nothing to regret or change..it just a normal life cycle..let it be.. just people who r sincere will stay in ur heart forever and ever... i love people who r sincere..not terpaksa..huhuhu

Imam Al-Ghazali berkata..

hiDupLah SeBaGaiMaNa yaNg EnGkau suKAi, TapI..
inGaTLah BaHAwa eNGkau AkaN mAtI ..

CintaILAh sESiapa YAng EngkAu suKAi, TapI..
janGan LUPe BAhawasANya eNGkau Akan tERpiSah deNGannya..

bUatlaH Apa Yang EngKau KehENDaki..TaPi..
aKan MenERima baLasaN dENgan Apa yAnG ENgkau LakukAn..

so i belive this when sumone said to me..what u give u get back..so when u get something that unexpected..so just accept it because both of us are same..

dan satu lagi sebagai manusia jangan hanya nampak kesalahan orang lain..kesalahan diri sendiri pun kena la tgk, dnt ever think that i, u, us, others always kind-hearted k!

im proud to be a muslim..

There's no word as beautiful as Allah..
No example as beautiful as Rasulullah..
No lesson as beautiful as Islam..
No song as melody as Azan..
No charity as meaningful as zakat..
No rules and regulation as good as Aurat
No encyclopedia as perfect as Al-Quran..
No exercise as perfect as Solat..
No diet as perfect as fasting..
No journey as perfect as Haji..

Let us realize that Islam is ever beautiful and perfect..
May Allah bless us..

stORy of My life..

sometimes when i'm telling myself the story of my life..silently inside my head...i feel that i wasn't in the story, i thought i was in..but it could be that if i had been in the story, i thought i was, then i might not have ended up here..and its where i want to be..i think..which is a god thing, because from any other point of view, it looks remarkably like a balls-up..

cha, sue, mer, teh dan iena..

all of them are my best friend.. and today i really miss them especially cha..miss the moment we had shared together..no one can replace you cha..no one can replace our friendship..no one..all of u r the best..

nothing left anymore..thats what im feel rite now...5 list to erase hopefully after i am 23years old it will finish..i dont want to face it anymore..yup all five..

plan xmnjdi

nampak gayany ak xjd pg KK..sbb pak cik kak Pid(KDPM) meninggal tadi pagi wktu sbuh..so dia pn da pulang sandakan..jd ak pn btlkn trip ak ke kota kinabalu dan kuala penyu..nampak gayanya aku akan meghabiskan waktu cuti seminggu di sini jela bersama my beloved rumate..

kalo ak kaya, da byk duit da lama ak bli tket blk semenanjung..huuhu..tp ak da nekad thn ni aku akan blk cti bln 5 dn akhr thn je..rya pn blm tntu ak nak blk..xmcm last year..bln 2 ak blk(kbtln tns smudera trus smbg CNY), bln 3 pn ak blk(sbe+cti 1week),bln 5 ak blk gak, bln 8 ak pblk (sbe+1 week),bln 10 ak blk(raya) dan bln 11 ak blk cti akhr thn..hhuhu..mau tak kering duit simpanan ak..smua tket ak pki duit saving ak je..mls nk ssh ayh..bjet ckup..tp cm ngam2 je utk ak pki skrg..2 pn time cti ak tgk2 je bju..da la sale smpi 70%-80%..geramny ak tuhan je yg tau..tp sbb nk jimat nye pasal, xnk ssh dkmdn hr ak hold je..x da bli pape time cti hr tu..tp dalam hold2 pn mau kat RM300@400 duit ak jalan..ntah pe ak bli ak pn xtau..

ak bru check tiket blk bln 5..hrga da mhl..mklum la cuti sekolah..hmm kena book awl2 ni..hrp2 cpt la elaun msk..nk book tiket blk... =(

p/s - Al-fatihah untuk arwah Pakcik Kak pid KDPM

baRangkali..

Barangkali kerana kejujuran dan kebaikan, seseorang mudah dipermainkan dan diperbodohkan. Kukira itulah lumrah dunia hari ini. Kita menyangjungi nilai yang jujur tetapi kerana terlalu jujur kita akan dipergunakan.

Manusia hanya ada dua pilihan, mempermainkan dan dipermainkan. Bagiku sekarang, di saat ini aku tidak memilih kedua-duanya sama ada mempermainkan atau dipermainkan orang. Kukira ini lebih selamat, sekalipun itu adalah tindakan pengecut. Tapi biarlah. Sekurang-kurangnya buat masa ini masa untuk ku mencari diri sendiri.

aku menangis lagi...

smlm ak mngs lg kerana seorang lelaki..aku sangat2 rindukan dia..haa aku xdapat tahan sudah..lastly ak biar kn saja air mata aku mengalir laju utk melepaskan tekanan itu..semakin hari semakin sayang..semakin hari semakin melekat di hatiku since the first day i saw him..huhuh..lelaki itu bernama muhammad hakimi@cucek my youngest brother, 3 years old...

waa ak rndu adk kimi..mse holidays hr tu we r so close..ni mybbkn ak jd rndu..suda terbiasa ak pg2 akn mdikn dia, suap mkn, kms tmpt kaitlny sma2, tgk cite kartun bsma, mnri lgu tema madagascar escape to africa bersama, kdg2 tdo pn sma2..huhuh..

keletah dia amat menceriakan suasana rumahku yang suda lama sunyi dengan bunyi tawa kanak-kanak..wlpn kdg2 keletah dia mencabar kesabaran ak..hahah..dia cukup comel n bijak..petah bercakap dan ringan tulang..slalu tlg ak mengemas rumah..klo dia mgntk msti dtg duduk di riba ak then tertido..kalo dia kna mrh pn msti dtng cri ak utk mgdu..dn ak spt slalu akn peluk dia serat yg mngkn utk mbiarkn dia rsa slmt..nakal tp mghburkan dan bijak itulah yg bleh ak sftkn..xtau la pa lg ak dpt tulis yg pasti state rndu ak skrg berada di thp climax..dan ak rse mcm mau terbang sekrang plng ke rumah bertemu adk dan family ak yg lain..hahaha..

ak yang merindui mereka ( mak, ayah, wani n cucek ) =( - Liyana

watching a sunset by the sea..my fav..

i really love watching a sunset by the sea since i was a kid..the smell of the sea was unmistakable..a gentle breeze blew..i stepped out of my sandals on to the soft sand..

i sat on the sand and gazed at the western horizon..white and grey clouds cloud be seen but the sun well hidden behind them..nothing spectacular was happening and i felt a bit of impatient rising..i waited..

presently the white and grey clouds began to change colour..i tried to focus on a particular part of the colourful scene but found that the colours were constantly changing..they changed very slowly and subtly although the scene appeared very still..it was quite impossible to expalain or describe this great wonder of nature in action..

finally i watched the sun slowly sink into the sea. Howevwe the sky remained redddish(like in chem precipitation..heheh) even though the sun could not longer be seen..i love this moment so much (my childhood moment)

today..

that's the other point..if this wasn't the plan then what was the plan? where was i meant to be? anywhere but here.. what i was meant to do? anything but this..i think about the past because if i can put all together, maybe i will understand why im lying in the bed im lying in..

So at two in the morning i remember it all over again..thats a problem as well..im tired and so tired..its late night and i feel like i am the only person in the world who is awake..huhuhu..

but im still happy with my life journey and still appreciate it..never regret it..and still draw a big smile everyday to everyone..

i love myself..

yesterday..I...

all i can say is that this isn't the way it was meant to be. this wasn't the plan. I know that isn't the best moment to assess my life..lying awake at 4am with a warm, breathing in and out..the birds wake me in the morning, i thought the dawn chorus was a figure of speech..but i have discovered that out here is really exist..A mob of whistles,hoots,screeches until the sun comes up..
At four in the morning you shouldn't think about your life. Do anything else instead..Get up..Have a bath..Go for a walk..They say the dawn is beautiful out here..

my mUM turn to 45 years old..

my mum turn to 45 years old on 16 January 2009..but i dont have a chance to post it on her birthday bcoz internet connection was irrupted..huuhuh.. so i take this opportunity to write it down tonight..

i miss you mum..sorry im not there, not accompany u on your birthday to celebrate together..but in early morning, after solat subuh i sent her a message for birthday wishes and call her in the afternoon.. my mum not noticed her birthday on that day and she little bit surperised when i called her and wish her bufday wishes..then she realize, why my father asked her to have a dinner that night..huuhuu..bestny..unfortunately i was not there.. =(

for mak, i hope u be blessed with many great days to come..Love U maK forever and ever..mmmmmuuuuuaaaaahhhhh..i misssssssssssssssssss u so much ma...

21 tahun 1bulan

hari ni umur ak da masuk 21 tahun 1bulan..sebab time bufday ak xdapat nk post jd ak post hr ni..huhu

sempena bufday ni aku dapat beg duit milk teddy dr suhaili dan beg utk letak stuff2 ak dri ana..thanx for both of u..huhu..my father bought blueberry cake for me..so delicious meh..heheh..mcm nak lg je..comel lg tu cake tu..ayh never and ever miss bought me a cake on my birthday since i am 3years old..when i was a kid, i always had a birthday party..invite all my frens and my neighbours..huhu but since i was 11 years old, no more birthdy party for me..hahaha..big already..huhu

so this year my age turn to 22..huhu..already young woman but still never stand by my own..hhhaha..i neeed someone behind me, accompany me on my way..who? shhhhhhhhhhh...hahahaha..

so my new mission i want stand by my self, beside that, i want 2 be more matured in certain thing and the most important, can handle my feeling, emotion and my heart well..can organize my schedule n my life well..study more harder..get more better result for this coming exam..and manage my money..this year my saving not too good..i need al ot of money to spend..i dont know where i can find the money..from pa n ma? oh no! stop to burden them..they already raised up me..xptt utk ak myshkn mrka lg skrg..

k la da nak blk da..blk awal bsn r kat class ni..hahaha

Bila rInDU bERtaMu..

Bila rindu bertamu

Hatiku diragut pilu

Aku jadi keliru

Bila rindu kembali bertamu

Kucari wajah milikmu

Kuseru nama indahmu

Namun kutahu kau semakin jauh dariku

Bersembunyi disebalik awan kelabu

Bila rindu terus bertamu

Kujejaki kenangan lalu

Kudendangkan lagu-lagu kita

Ratap dan tangis datang bertamu

Lalu aku tahu, aku tahu

Bahawa aku hanyalah seorang PERINDU....

Men And Women

today in Budaya dan Pembelajaran class we have learned about men and women..how teacher can produce or create gender bias in the class..but before we go through the lesson,
we have discuss and discover the topic about "perempuan perlu berhenti kerja untuk mengatasi masalah pengangguran di kalangan lelaki"...

this topic little bit hot..hehehe..of course im as a gurl and woman not agree with this topic..all of my frens (gurl) very excited to come out their opinion to prove the statement absolutely wrong..we need to debate this topic..but unfortunately our openent not interest to debate about this and stand with their point..half of them seems like agree and allow women go for works..one of the reason, they will bored if all the workers are men..hahaha..

so what can i say here..men cannot stand witout women, but women can survive without men..thats the power of women..hahaha..

mAsjid kristal

THE CRYSTAL MOSQUE is the natural beauty of Islam and Kuala Terengganu..the area of the mosque combines with manmade and natural beauty..this area provide a wide variety of activities and services including the exquisite miniature monuments of the islamic world, windows of Islam..

Last holiday, my family and i have visited crystal mosque situated at Pulau Wan Man.. Here some pictures there..check it out..huhhu

cUrse..

curse mean sumpahan..adakah yang berlaku pada hari ni dan pada hari sebelum ni di Institut Perguruan Tawau adalah satu curse..

sumpaham yang saya maksudkan di sini ialah mengenai ketiadaan bekalan air apabila ada org datang ke institut..smlm lbh kurabg seratus lbh student kpli mendaftar dan hr ni..bla ak blk kuliah je air dah takde..haiya.. dan begitu la selaluny..xkira la samada pendaftaran pelajar baru atau pape majlis yang melibatkan kedatangan org ramai ke IP ni mesti berlaku water shortage..haa..tekanan ak..tp xla effect jadual harian ak..da terbesa agakny..kalo stakat 3,4 hr xd air besa r tu..penah plg lama hmpr menginjak 4weeks = 1month lorh..

mcm2 la faktor kejadian water shortage ni antarany paip pecah, tunggu paip dari Jepun la, cuci loji la ntah pape ntah..aku pn tak tau..

jd ak membuat andaian bahawa IP ni di makan sumpah..iaitu setiap kali kedatangan orang baru atau orang ramai akan disambut dengan water shortage..huhuhu..pndi2 je ak ni..

kamu tidak akan memiliki seseorang teman..jika kamu mengharapkan sesorang tanpa kesalahan kerana semua manusia itu baik kalau kamu dapat melihat kebaikannya dan menyenangkan kalau kalau dapat melihat keunikannya...tetapi semua manusia itu akan buruk dan membosankan kalau kamu tidak dapat melihat kedua-duanya..

di seBALik kata2 Ada kebenarannya...thanx

someone said 2 me a few months ago...

CiNta....
terlalu bnyk tafsiran
terlalu bnyk pengertian
yg paling penting adalah bagaimana tuk kita menguasai cinta..
bkn menjadi hamba..
bkn menjadi lemah..
bkn juga tuk di kenang shgga merana
mgkn benar kau telah jatuh cinta
tp mgkn benar juga dia bkn jodoh kau
percayalah yg Allah itu maha menguasai...n dia juga menguasai hati..PERGANTUNGAN kepada Nya adalah sesuatu yg amat berbaloi..
sandarkanlah segala keluh kesah, pahit lelah hidup mu kepada Nya.. nescaya dia tidak akan membiarkan mu terus merana..ALLAH sgt suka pd hambanya yg slalu mengadu padanya
REDHA...adalah 1 keajaiban yg luar biasa..bila kau redha pd kehendak Illahi,nescaya Allah jua akn redha padamu..BERSERAH..serahkan semua kesedihan mu pdnya,nescaya air mata mu xkn sia-sia.jgn kau kenang pd kenangan krn ia adalh yg mimpi smlm,jgn kau tnya mgapa terjd krn semmgnya khendak Illahi,jgn kau mengeluh krn derita krn Allah sbnrnya mmberi mu peluang tuk mndpt kelebihan dr hasil KESABARAN.
Jika slma ini kau memohon tuk melupakn dia,apa kata kau cuba bermohon pada ALLAH supaya hatimu istiqamah n yakin dgn CINTAMU pada ALLAH LEBIH BESAR DR SEGALA_GALANYA DI DUNIA INI.hatta kpd keluargamu sndr..moga2 dgn itu ALLAH mmberikanmu ketenangan yg kau harapkan..mgkn itu lbh baik dr melupakan dirinya..

hnya sekadar buah fikiran..
aku sndiri org yg terlalu lemah..
xlayak rasenya nk menasihati..
cuma aku amt kasihan pd org yg terseksa krn cinta..
krn betapa aku telah merasa betapa sakitnya ditikam cinta yg dikhianati..
bnyk pkrtlh kucuba tuk bngun smula..
hnya pabila aku benar2 REDHA..
benar2 mnyerahkan hatiku serta sgala kesedihannya pd Allah,
benar2 mahu MENYNTAI ALLAh lbh dr sgala-galanaya..maka aku brtemu dgn ketenagan yg aku harapkn..
sesungguhnya ALLAH tidak zalim pd hambanya..

jika dia milik mu..
dia akn kembali kpdmu 1 hari nnt
tp buat ms ini..hidupmu bkn terletak pd kenangan2 smlm..
hidupmu utk tersnyum gmbira
diluar mahupn didlm..

YANA,
maafkan aku dgn sume kate2 ni..
klau ia bererti bg kau..aku hrap ia bole mmbntu kau wlaupn sdikit..
tp klau kau rasa ia xbrmkna, lupa n buangkn saja sume ni..ok..=)
gd nite..
DAPATKN TIDO YG BERKUALITI K

sebelum tido..start from here..

if only life came with a road map...
a few warning signs to let you know when the hard decisions are about to crop out..
or when the a major crossroad is looming...
but its doesn't work like that..
you can do is start from here..
wherever you happen to be..
armed with the little you know..

gud nite..

happy BiRthday ayah..

hari ni hari yang istimewa sbnrnya coz today is my father's birthday..huhuhu.. tahun ni umur ayah genap 49 tahun..he is already getting old..as a daughter i never forget this special day..

hmm..skang ak da menginjak ke alam dewasa, so tgng jwb tu xlama lg akan berpindah ke bahu aku..ayah sorg yg ak kagumi..apabila seseorang lelaki mbuat aku sakit hati atau menyakiti mane2 pmpn dan tindakan mereka itu mentrigger ak mbnci kaum adam..tp rse itu akan hilang bila aku terpandang ayah..

ayah seorang yang baik, penyayang, setia, bertanggung jawab, penyabar dan banyak lagi..ini menyedarkan ak bhwa bkn semua lelaki begitu..hanya lelaki yang tidak matang akan bertindak sdmikian yg cetek pmkrn akan mjdi lelaki yg bukan lelaki sebenar..hilang respect ak 100% hilang terhadap golongan2 lelaki sebegini..menampakkan ketidak matangan dan kekurangan diri mereka..ak brckp mgkt mata pngdn ak..mgkn da yg rse pndgn ak ni slh..tp itu skit xmgngu ak..msng2 da pandangan msng2..trus kn lh dgn pndrian msg2 itu..

pape pn aku bangga mnjdi anak ayah..aku syang ayah smpi ke liang lahad, ak berjanji akan membahgiakan ayah..smpi sekarang pn ak xpnah rse segan atau canggung untuk bersalam dan cium pipi ayah di depan orang ramai dan memang itu lah yang aku lakukan di airport setiap kali aku nak datang tawau wlpn umr ak sekarang sudah 21 tahun 25 hari ..sbb ak nak semua orang tau dia ayah aku, dan aku bangga jadi anak ayah..ak juga nak ayah tau,ak tetap akan syang dia..dan levelny tak penah berubah dek jarak dan masa..dan itulah salah satu cara aku menghormati ayah..

ak tau ak nakal wktu kck suke buat ayah mrh, smpi ayh pnh campak beg sekolah aku luar rumah sbb aku gagal n tak nak pg sekolah, ptng2 main pnjt bukit, main kat parit join mber2 lelaki ak tangkap anak katak, da rezeki kami dapat ikan..maghrib bru ak balik rmh gan basikal kuning aku tu..tu pn kdg2 ayah yg pg cri ak gna motor dia..i2 la ak wktu kcik2 dlu, khdpn lbh terarah kpd gaya hdp bdk2 lelaki..tp skrg ak plak jd cikgu wlpn dlu mls g sekolah..heheh n skarg pndi suda ak jd seorg pmpn..hahahaha..

apa yang aku miliki skrg semua kerana jasa ayah..jasa seorang ayah terhadap anaknya..

time kasih ayah..I LOVE U FOREVER AND EVER..........

Welcome to IP Tawau

hari ni pendaftaran KPLI kat Ip..kteny 213org..tp scra kasar ak tgk ckit je yg dtg..huhhu..

hmm..ni kali ak relax..sonok btl..besany ak ke hulur ke hilir stp kali da pendaftaran student bru..tp kali ni miss rehatkan ak..slmt..ntah cmne ak slalu terpilih jd kem kom,jg dspln stdents spjng mpbb..padahal ak ni bkn la brdspln sgt pn..huhuhuhu..

pape pn ip ni akan jd ramai dn dipenuhi oleh umat manusia kembali seperti sedia kala..ak sbnrny lg prefer kalo Ip ni ckit org so ak xla ssh nak da turn byr mkn, turn mandi, asmbly pn x crowded..ak xmnt la bnda yg rmi2 ni..mgkn jg sbb kat rumah ak slma ni 2beradik je, lately ni je bertambah sorg g..tp bnda ni alah bisa tegal biasa coz ak ni da 5tahun duk hostel..campur sekarang da nak msk 9 tahun ak membesar di hostel without my family members but with all my lovely frens..they r like my family lol..huhuhu..

hmm..dan sekarang ak rse ak rindu rumah gan fmly ak..waaa..huhuhu..ni la mslh kalo cti lma2 ni..huhuh..ak yg homesick L.I.Y.A.N.A...

a few days ago..

" last week i found a card from you, i didnt think i had kept any of them, i thoght i had destroyed EVERYTHING from U..but dis one somehow been overlooked, i found it among some old cards, i wasn't going to read it, as soon as i saw ur handwriting, i felt revulsion, i threw it in the bin..i dont want see it again..hmmm.."

seUNtai KaTA uNTuK dI raSA..

Pepatah Inggeris pernah berkata, Familiarity breeds contempt. Bermaksud, bila kita terlalu dekat tiada lagi kebaikan dan keburukan sikap masing2 yang dapat dilindungi, hilang rasa kekaguman dan penghormatan..

Tetapi Pepatah jawa juga pernah menyebut, witin tresno jalaran soko kulino. Ertinya, timbulnya sayang kerana terbiasa berdekatan tidak kira secara zahir atau batinnya.

Antara 2 pepatah ini aku tidak tahu mana satu yang benar tapi buat masa ini aku pilih yang pertama lebih benar, kerana ia lebih menepati keadaanku saat ini. Atau kerana perasaanku memang aneh.

Semua ini mendedahkan aku pada satu bentuk kehidupan yang lain dari dulu. Dan ia mengasah fikiran serta mencabar diriku untuk bijak bertindak dalam segala hal. Tidak banyak melawan dan tidak banyak menurut.

Apa – apa pun kuasa di dunia ini tidak dapat melawan kebenaran, sekalipun betapa ia berusaha meneggelamkan kebenaran itu. Dan aku selalu percaya kepada kebenaran

Hidup memerlukan rasional. Yang pergi, ya silakan pergi, kita sememangnya tidak dapat menahan apatah lagi mengubah takdir itu, betapa pun kita menyesalinya dan meratapinya. Tidak ada harga untuk dibayar pemergian dan kehilangan itu. Mereka yang pergi telah tiada apa-apa lagi untuk kita fikrkan. Tapi apa yang harus kita fikrkan, yang harus kita kesali nasibnya ialah kita. Ya kita, kita harus terus hidup.

Rasionallah terima realiti. Yang penting kita tahu kita masing-masing harus punya prisip sendiri dan harus menghormati prinsip orang lain juga.

hepi new year

hahahah..happy new year..hari ni la bru da pluang nak tls..slalu bukak..tp xsempat nak tulis..skang da masuk 2009..scra ksmplnny sepanjang tahun 2008 ak happy dari januari smpi ogos..tp start sept until disember im, erm little bit silly..huhuhu..but im promise to my self starting this year i never and ever do the same thing..the stupid and silly thing that i almost do about 3years..hahahahaha..hopefully this year Allah give me His bless and happiness..jangan pandang belakan lg..terus melangkah dengan gahny..Alhamdullillah, the starting for this year come with good news..i got flying colours result for my exam..huhuhu..hopefully Allah takkan tarik nikmat yang satu ini sampai ak hbs belajar..thanx God..wlpn ak xbpe chat time exam, yup ni la hikmah dalam setiap kejadian..ak pcya tentang itu..ok YANA be strong..smga ak terus tabah dan berusaha menjadi insan yang taat pada Pencipta, ibu bapa, diri sendiri dan dalam persahabatan =)