tALk i"LL liStEn..

this one is real...i copy this from my junior blog zati@teja..

its NOT LOVE

When you keep coming back to the same person only to be hurt by the same mistake you forgave
When you are the only one giving and him taking everything that you gave in

When he keeps on hitting you with the so-called ‘jealousy’ of his and apologizes every time he does that
When all you think is how handsome he is in the things he wears, have or earns
When he says he only loves you but at the same time loves her too thinking that you can just ‘share’
When you keep coming up with reasons to cover whatever he have done to you.

And yet they say 


‘Love is Blind’ when its actually the ‘people’ who’s blind enough(pretends to be blind) to see something as simple as that..Its not love..Because if it was then you don’t need reason for all this sh**ts..Save your love..You deserve someone better.. Because only after we met the wrong ones, we will find the right one..Learn not to make the same mistake..Because I wont say this again..Enough said..

got it from my friend's tumblr

=)

p/s - If your love can survive separation, you know it's for real..

SePi..

penah tengok filem ni tak..uishh..sedih cite dia..aku nangis kot tgk..mcm sblm ni tak penah ngis je..ngis juga pn..hehehehe..tp time filem ni ngs baik punya..huhuhuhu..sebab sepi aku nak buat diri aku hepi..aku nak jawab benda alah ni la..hehehe

What is on your bed right now?
Handphones, charger, teddy, besides pillows and blanket..

When was the last time you threw up?
last month..January

What’s your favorite word or phrase?
ya kali..(sabahan influence)

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
Hakimi, Nadiah, Hakim

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
war with my pillows and blanket..

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
chatting with my friend

What is your favorite holiday?
Pulau Mabul =)

Have you ever been to another country?
Yes, Brunei..hahahaha

What is the last thing you said aloud?
kimi kejaplah!

What is the best ice cream flavor?
Walls Solero Split ice cream..waahhhhh

What was the last thing you had to drink?
plain water

What are you wearing right now?
black cardigan, blue jeans, purple baby-t

What was the last thing you ate?
mee hun soup

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
nope..

When was the last time you ran?
hmm..nice question..yesterday..ran upstairs..hehehe

What’s the last sporting event you watched?
Football..

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Makkah but must prepare first before go there..

Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace?
don’t have one..

Ever go camping?
Yup..

Do you have a tan?
No

Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
Brooch..

What is your guilty pleasure?
secret..huhuhu

Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
sometimes. =P

Do you drink your soda from a straw?
yes..

What did your last text message say?

Ahh..hrp2 semuanya ok, yana pun mudah2an dpt tmpt baik, nnti bgtau aunty ye..take care, love u..

Are you someone’s best friend?
ohh yeahh.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Just stay at home or maybe attend wedding invitation..

Where is your mom right now?
in her bedroom..sleep lorh..late night already..

Look to your left, what do you see?
my blue towel and telekung..

What color is your watch?
Silver

What do you think of when you think of Australia?

Koala Bear..CUTE!!!!!

Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
nope..i'm afraid of it..huhuhu..maybe one day with my future husband =p

What is your birthstone?
God knows

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Go in a fast food..

Do you have a dog?
of course nope..but puppy so cute heh..huhuhu

Last person you talked to on the phone?

i don't know whom..wrong number..but that person said my name twice..erk

Are you happy?
bitter sweet..hahaha..i wish i'm happy all the time..LOL

Where are you right now?

home..in my bedroom..

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
My memories..go away please..heh

Last movie you saw?
Kuch Kuch Hotai =p

Are you allergic to anything?
detergent..my hand getting worst day by day..huhu

Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
none

Are you jealous of anyone?
I think so..hehehe..but no hard feeling

Are you married?
NO..

Is anyone jealous of you?
I don't know..

Do any of your friends have children?
Yes..i'm aunty yana already..hehehe

Do you eat healthy?
sometimes yes sometimes nope..

What do you usually do during the day?
eat..sleep..facebook..blog walking..

Do you hate anyone right now?
hmm..maybe yes..but hate is too strong a word..so nope maybe..

Do you use the word ‘hello’ daily?
yes..

How many kids do you want when you’re older?
i wish to have between 3-5 kids =)

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
24..urgh..old already ooo..but still cengeng lorh..

How did you get one of your scars?
exhaust of a motorcycle..

p/s - Please accept yourself more..Please love yourself..Please make the right choices..Please know what is good for you and please..please know that you are not alone k?..hmm ok =)

~ I hate to act strong when all i want to do is break down and cry ~

"Apabila engkau telah mengecapi manisnya dekat dengan-Nya, pasti kamu akan mengetahui betapa pahitnya putus hubungan dengan-Nya" [imam al-Nawawi]

hmmmmm..

dI aTaS NoRmAL..

dah hampir2 nak masuk sebulan perkara ni terjadi..tetapi kenapa masih mempunyai rasa yang sama? bukankah sudah berbincang..dan itu yang terbaik..hmm..layan dulu lagu ni..

Pikiranku 

Tak dapat kumengerti 

Kaki dikepala 

Kepala dikaki 

Pikiranku 

Patutnya menyadari 

Siapa yang harus 

Dan tak harus kucari 

Tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti 

Sesuatu 

Yang baru kusadari 

Kau tinggalkanku 

Tanpa sebab yang pasti 

Sesuatu yang harusnya terjadi 

Kau sakiti aku 

Kau yang harus ku benci 

Tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti 

Tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti 

Ku mencari sesuatu yang telah pergi 

Ku mencari hati yang kubenci 

Ku mencari sesuatu yang tak kembali 

Ku mencari hati yang kubenci 

Ku mencari 

Tetap tak dapat kutemui 

ku mencari hati yang kubenci

p/s - tak normalkah aku???

RInDu BearTanDanG laGI..

wah lagu Rahim Maarof menemani ku di kala tangan ligat menulis pena..ok saya tau ni tipu saya sedang depan screen..hari ni penat fizikal n hati..mental ok masih..Alhamdulillah..

1. aku tido semalam 6.15 am mungkin..ntah aku tak tau bila aku tertido
2. aku bgn jam 9.30 am sbb adik aku nak berak..aku kena basuh..dia tak pergi sekolah sebab mata bengkak kena gigit serangga..dei..
3. ayah call jam 10.30 pagi cakapnya aku mungkin mengajar di kemaman tapi luar bandar..Chenih..Felda Neram..Cherol..aku pun jarang2 pergi sana..unless ayah aku da kerja yang berkaitan FAMA..kdg2 dia bawa juga pg jumpa pakcik kebun..
4. aku mandi jam 1.30 bila masuk waktu zohor..ok ni memang buruk perangai..tapi sekarang musim winter..consider la ckit..sejuk ba..
5. ayah ajak aku keluar sebab nak pergi tengok kereta..katanya kalau pakai loan bank islam tak yah deposit..atau aku nak dia dahulukan deposit, aku byr bulan2 je..aku cakap..kereta yana biarlah yana bayar..aku setujua pakai loan bank islam je..
6. aku cari t-shirt hitam aku yang aku baru beli sebulan lalu..puas aku cari..tak jumpa..tapi t-shirt hitam orang lain plak yang aku jumpa..tears..rindu.. (!_!)..tp aku pakai juga..hati lembik..
7. pergi kat pengedar perodua aku tak tau nak amik viva elite or myvi limited edition..tp aku tak kan amik Alza..bukan nak buat part time angkut budak2 sekolah pun kan..buat pa nak amik MPV..masih berfikir..
8. aku pergi settlekan Maybank2u.com aku yang da prob since 1@2 years ago..bagusnya aku ni kan..selama ni mintak tolong orang je yang belikan tiket..time kasih kena sudi tolong..smpi da gdh2 ckit..huhuhu
9. simpati gan jiran lama aku yang risau tentang anaknya yang sekarang study kat Mesir sebab keadaan makin hura-hura..terputus hubungan lagi gan banyak penjara telas dipecahkan so ramai la penjenayah berkeliaran..May Allah bless her..
10. calling with someone that have strong heart since semalam beliau dah janji nak call..hey..i'm happy..shared many things with that person..semakin hari semakin sayang..hati jadi kuat balik..sumber inspirasi.. =)
11. solat n persiapan diri..tgk berita..hmm makan mee sup mak buat..plus nasi minyak yang tak habis aku makan petang tadi dan paw pulut kelapa ayah ckit..heh..Alhamdulillah malam tadi aku da selera..
12. timbang berat..hmm gembira berat aku 47kg..dah naik 1kg =)..aku da masa 6 hari lagi utk gain weight before start kerja
13. berdondang sayang atas katil sambil surf internet pasal kereta idaman..aku kan indecisive type person..but lastly aku buat keputusan aku amik MYVI limited edition colour dazzling red..ok girlish skit..hahah..sejak bila aku pandai concern tentang girlish2 ni..annoying yana..hahah..hmm cpt lak aku wat kptsn kali ni..
14. berkongsi kisah kasih n cinta dengan mak..mak ok je..tak marah n tak negetif pun..aku je yang takut lebih nak cerita..mak pesan lagi jangan putuskan hubungan silatulrahim..tak baik mak cakap..berkawan sajelah walaupun mungkin tak sehaluan..ok mak..
15. bukak internet..eh bukak laptop la..dan macam tajuk entry ni rindu bertandang lagi maka tercetus la entry ini..hmm
16. ok masih dalam dilema..nak pergi atau tidak esok ni..hmmm
17. aku perlu sedar aku perlu tidur sebab semalam aku tidur 3 jam je..good night =)

p/s - aku sekarang macam tak pandai buat keputusan..semua benda aku mitak org decidekan..makin tua..makin tak da pendirian lak aku ni..atau faktor emosi yang tak stabil n hati yang lemau sekarang ni..hmm