i MisS hIm sO bAd..

saya rindu dia =(

I'm just not like before..I can run n hide but I can't stop..I want write something, to express my feeling but my brain wont let me to do so..I'm happy with my life lately..even there is something bad chasing me..Let me spell it out right for you.. Friday blessing..i like..

to make a decision its not as easy as A B C..if you make a wrong decision..its maybe haunted you for the rest of your life..and making decision under emotion influence might be kill you..but sometime you drive me to full of emotion..I cant resist and avoid this..Its not my intention..but i know you take it seriously even i never mean it..but I'm not regret of it..why i need to regret..because its happened for a reason..if you can ignore it..why i can't..I'm not talking about who is the winner or who is the loser but I'm talking about respectful..showing some love..about how you appreciate people around you..

This game I'm playing is tiring..what didn't kill me, only make me stronger..If it meant to be..and it will be..and what always make me talk nonsense is you..i have nothing to say..just drowning in my own sweat not tears anymore..old habits die hard..I have no room and no space for your big ego..go elsewhere..and you are not invited..I'm so not available..remember the day we were close to the edge..

p/s - iron baju adlah satu perkara yang amat menyesakkan ok.. especially in the midnight or early in the morning..someone please help me..sigh~

ActIon ReSearcH..

sumpah la aku pening gan subjek ni..
makin di belajar makin blur..
dan sekarang dah kena tukar hasil kajian daripada BM kepada BI..
aku dah agak dah..
tapi cakap BM..
at last tukar juga..
hmm serabut tul la..
mane lagi dapatan kajan..
pre and post lagi..
questionnaire lagi segala..
haih..
stiap kali ak wat ni mesti pening..huhuhu
Ya Allah bagilah kekuatan kepada ak dan permudahkan segala urusan aku dan kawan2 ku yang lain..

p/s - boleh tak jangan tambah beban saya..haih sy tak tahu la betul ke tak keputusan tu..adakah di bawah pengaruh emosi..whatever la..tak nak pk!!!!!!!!! jangan pk!!!!!!!!!!!!

nAsI LaLap bUkaN NaSi LalaT..

Nasi lalap ni berasal dari Indon..
Hidangannya adalah nasi putih atau kadang2 nasi dimasak wangi, ayam goreng yang bersalut tepung, sedikit ulaman seperti timun, kacang panjang,tomato dan sambal tumis..
last saturday, i went to town and ate Nasi Lalap at Kayu Manis..
and today I'm fasting n I'm craving for nasi lalap once again..
first time i ate this nasi, about last 2 or 3 years ago maybe..
and since that time i became hard die fan of nasi lalap..huhuhu
sedap okeh..

p/s - kamu minggu depan jom..sotong besar kat Yassin Curry House..huhu

dUsTa..

kadang2 kecurangan itu tidak nampak..
apatah lagi keikhlasan..
kalo satu kesakitan itu berpunca daripada penipuan..
kenapa masih harus mahu menipu..
kalo masih tersimpan..
luahkan..
lontarkan..
tapi kenapa kamu tidak hiraukan..
adakah kamu memang begitu..
atau hanya mengukir senyuman di sebalik cahaya..
menjaga hati..
saya tahu..
kekuatan itu sudah tiada..
tapi kenapa tidak dicari..
atau saya, kamu, meraka dan kalian hanya cuba mencari helah..
jangan timbulkan teka-teki..
kerana sejauh mana kamu memutarkannya..
hati saya mudah berbicara..
kadang2 saya rasa mau pergi jauh dari kamu, mereka dan kalian..
kesakitan hati tak pernah bisa di fahami oleh mereka..
jangan suka menghiris jika tidak tahu mengubatinya..
kerana luka yang ringan bisa menjadi dalam..
tingkah kamu, mematikan aku..
memaksa aku menjadi kaku..
aku bukan lagi seperti semalam..
aku akan bergerak seperti zarah..
biarkan aku terbang bersama air yang mengalir itu..

12 January 1960

happy belated birthday to you...even though I'm late to wish your birthday in my blog yet i had wish your birthday on its day right?thanks for being such a great father...may Allah bless you always...I love you very much and there's nothing can replace you as my dad...you are our ayah and will always be our ayah...it remains forever...

16 January 1964

Happy birthday mak..please always be by our side coz you are our strength...love you so much mom...no words can describe my love for you...thank you for being such a wonderful mom...i love you so much mak...according to my bond, no more nor less...take care..

hope Many Happy Returns to Ayah and Mak..May Allah shower Ayah and Mak with His blessings..Amin..both of you are the best man and woman in the world..i love you ayah and mak ..but I'm sorry

I'm not a good daughter =(

sUbUh yAnG iNdah..

Hmm, things get pretty complicated lately..
but I'm not complaining..
and i deserve to make it all right..
i have a lot things to do..
things that need my attention..
they need my attention..
completely my attention..
but I'm still the same just like a few days ago..
don"t know which one I should start first..
and my mood was up side down..
actually
there is nothing wrong with my life..
I always look for bright side of life..
but it doesn't mean I don't have the problems..
I have it..
but I own them, not problems own me..
and Alhamdulillah my relationship with all people around me was much more better than before..
especially with my love one..
i like it..
because before this its something happened between us..
and its seem like both of us were blur n don't know how to handle it..
don't know to blame on what..
but anything happened teach us to be more strong..
whatever it is..family first..
so its not our fault..
but its a fate..
and I learned a lot..
for my study..
Starting for this year was little bit bad..
I mean about the works n tasks..
even though only two subjects..
but its really gave me some pressure n burden..
I hope I can stand with all this..
can go through without any hesitate..
just believe and confident..
InsyaAllah i can face it successfully..
need big effort and enthusiasm..
need to be patient and more hardworking..
always remind to my self..
just one more year left to go..
so please do the best.. =)