as usual starting from December until in the middle of March every year, I've endured so much pain that it could either kill a person or turn them heartless..yeaah sometime i think i'm heartless..Afraid to suffer, i made myself tune out from thinking too much and just going with the flow, stop feeling anything and just do what i have to do..
i just feeling like wanna seal your mouth who kept on asking me about it..hey stop asking me about something i don't want to talk about..something i don't want to think about..something i don't want to remember anymore..can you understand me?
i don't want to make it okay anymore..it just useless effort..so just let it be..I wish for a sign everyday, for a light to show me the way..a little sign at least so that i know what im doing is right..But when it doesnt work that way, i'll rest for a while and waiting for the right time..right sign to take an action..
don't try to teach me something i don't want to learn..no need to tell me about life..because i know life is thrilling, but also difficult and i almost felt like giving up but to hell with that hah? i plan to survive and move on..if you think you're good enough..just go with your life..just go with your way..don't drags me down when i survive to stand..you should know where you stand..no matter how much you want things to happen, if they're not meant to be, they will never be..
p/s - don't pretend and said you care..you love..because if you care if love you wont betray me behind my back..you wont think to give up..noob you!!..think about it..chow..change url? it might be work..yeaahhhh..still thinking..ok indecisive again..yup truly me..