sAya dI sIni..

SK Wakuba..

showing some love on you..

i am who i am..

i've learned a lot..
i've learned to just accept the things that are given to me in life..
and not question too much..
i've learned that you have to make mistake in order to learn from them..
i've learned that you can't depend on anyone else..
but
yourself..
so in the end all you really have is yourself..
i know that whatever doesn't kill you..
only make you STRONGER..

i am who i am..
sweetie your approval isn't needed..
how matter how much think it is..

choosing..one the most important part in life

iTs SouND gOod oR maYbE sTuPId..

hmm..you always think im stronger but im not..yes im not..please be alert about this..

im tired of waiting..
im tired of facing..
im tired of thinking..
im tired of lying..
im tired of ignoring..
im tired of writing..
im tired of hoping..
im tired of reading..

i'm certainly hoping i'm always happy..

someone help me please! to plan lesson plan PJ..huhuhu..and give me some tips how to make my students understand about conductor and insulator..im already used malay while teaching (melanggar etika suda) but they were still confuse especially 4 boys that seat in front of my table..they dont know how to read..so no wonder they cant undestand..but its not their fault..its not about the language but its all about me..its my fault cannot teach them as they required and need..Allah please bless me..i never had a problem like this before..so i dont know how to handle and overcome this problem.. =(((

p/s - hmm after one week at school..more than half rim of paper is used..no wonder so many tree are being cut down..after one week at school..my weight become to normal weight 48kg..but now im little bit stress and i feel like want to eat burger..so i asked my junior to buy it for me..maybe when i wake up tomorrow my weight become 50kg or maybe more..oh i dont care..just eat..its sound good or stupid? i dont know..

iM gRowInG..

tiba hari ini genap la 4 tahun 3 hari sy menghabiskan arca-arca kehidupan sy di bumi Sabah ni..
mungkin rakan-rakan seperjuangan lupa akan tarikh 3 julai bg rakan semenanjung dan 4 julai bg rakan - rakan sabahan tersebut..al - maklumlah virus H1N1 sedang melanda..(huhu.pa kaitan..sengal..semoga kita dilindungi daripada bencana ini..amin..) tuntutan tugas sebagai guru PRAKTIKUM mungkin menyebabkan rakan-rakan terlepas pandang kali..(bg sy jadi Guru Praktikum lg bz plus leceh sebab..RPH yg pnjg itu..waaa..lu pk r sendiri)

sepanjang masa yang saya lalui di sini, di IPGM Tawau khasnya..banyak yang saya pelajari selain belajar menjadi seorang guru yang baik dan hebat..huhuhu..hebat sangat lah..muhahahaha

saya juga belajar untuk jadi

hamba yang baik kepada pencipta

anak yang baik kepada ibu bapa

pelajar yang baik kepada pensyarah

kawan yang baik kepada kawan-kawan

kekasih yang baik kepada kekasih

dan
tentang bulan..hehehehe..
tentang hidup la mcm lagu dayang tu, erti hidup..huhuhu

saya yang masih belajar dan terus belajar dan berusaha menjadi sebaik mungkin saya boleh jadi..semoga saya terus belajar dan Allah permudahkan perjalanan hidup saya kini dan akan datang..di dunia dan di akhirat..

p/s -kepada kawan2 Sn n Math selamat ulang tahun ke 4..semua memori kita bersama masih terpahat kukuh di hati =)

oNe MiNuTe Only

its more than enough..

satu jam saja kutelah bisa

cintai kamu,kamu,kamu dihatiku

namun bagiku melupakanmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup..
satu jam saja kutelah bisa

sayangi kamu dihatiku

namun bagiku melupakanmu

butuh waktuku seumur hidup

dinantiku

i copy this from my last year entry..song lyric actually..ST 12 - saat terakhir..but what i'm trying to say here not about this song but about yersterday..

i dont know how long i met him..i guess its only one minute..but maybe less and maybe more too..but im sure and very2 sure its less than 3 minutes..huhuhu..

but its ok..one minute after 2 months not see each other..its already make me smile along that day..duration of time its not the matter for me or measurement for me..the most important trustworthy and sincerity..its more than enough to make me happy all the time..hopefully..but from deep of my heart..im still miss him and hope can meet him as soon as possibble..hahahah (dah start dah sengal dia..alamak 2 rph blm buat..k stop dreaming..huhuhu..buh bye =p)

kepada kamu terima kasih..

p/s - kepada rumate jg terima kasih sebab tido sekarang..so aku da peluang guna laptop dan broadband ko..hehehe..jgn mrh r rumate..cyg ko..mmmmuaaah2..hehehe

sEtElah sEKian laMA..

terpisah saya dengan dunia blog ini..today i want to write something here, after borrowed my rumate's laptop..she iron her clothes now, so sy pn ambil kesempatan..hehehe..my broadband is ok by my laptop cannot detect the device..maybe my laptop want boycott me from blogging..my rumate said like that..but, i dont think so..huhuhu..

starting from last week i was busy with MPBB until friday and continue with being a judge for PPIM day at Masjid Al-Kausar, Tawau on Saturday..went to town on Sunday for bought some materials for PRAKTIKUM..very tiring week..yang tinggal hanya kekuatan mental ..physical, totally out..huhuhu..

ok then berPRAKTIKUM yg bertempat di SK Wakuba bukanlah satu yang menggembirakan hati dan naluri guru sy..but at first maybe and hopefully..and i miss my last school..SK Titingan, maybe because of the teachers, the students and the canteen there..too different with SK Wakuba..lagipun da SK Melodi di sana..jd pa la kaitan..heheheh..oh hanya yang pakar saja yang tau..kepada yg tidak pakar, sabar..hahahah..mcm la org nak tau sgt perasan je yana ni..

k at first day there..haa very2 bored..dont know what to do..just go around..the school has small area so i just need 10 minutes only to know all the places..its more than enough..my rumate and I just sit and wait to abang said took us..

second day woke up in the morning n try to be positive..searching for my happiness there and i start to be talkative..maybe little bit sucessful..huhuu..third day i entered class for year 4..wow my students all good boys and good girls..unexpected but thats the reality..but.. 4 org tak tau membaca..xpe satu cabaran

ok continue with fourth day..i was slept at school early morning..very2 sleepy lorh..sekolah ni sgt damai sampai buat saya jd sebegitu mengantuk..n i think i want suggest to the headmistress of the school to change the name of the school as SK kg Damai..hehehehe..

but miracle happened today..oh i dont have any classes today..waa hari ni sgt hebat..i learned many new thing..first i find 2 snakes..satu kat atas pokok..satu tu limpas kat kasut saya time kat masjid..masjid kat tepi skolah je..sy mcm syok ckit tgk ular n kena mrh gan rumate sbb mau pg dekat2..cute la ular2 tu..hehehe..besa la sy jarang la lalui experience sebegini..hoho..dua saya jumpa busut yang sgt besar dia bersambung dari tanah sampai ke dalam rumah yg dijadikan stor PJ..waa, sy sgt2 jakun org bilang..sy tak penah tgk busut cmtu..bila sy cite kat abg pun, abg gelak..abg kate nti dia buat kn satu busut utk sy letak kat dpn blik..abg ni..tp sy tak kisah sy tetap kagum gan busut tu..hahahaha..k lg sy jumpa org bru blk dr pengkalan bawa ikan yang maha fresh dan boleh tahan saiz dia..yuu..sdapny kalo bleh pangang dan cecah gan air asam..huhhu..dan hr ni da pak cik bg kami udang..besar bep udang tu..oh maybe for some of you there was nothing..but for me its very interesting for having this kind of feeling and experiences..i live at town and not expose with this life style of life and environment and scenery..so once Allah give me this chance to experience it..im really appreciate and felt grateful..

oh SK Wakuba only have six classes..one class for each year..and i teach year 2 for PJ and year 3 and year 4 for Science..only have one canteen that only cooked one meal for each day..and sometime not enough for us..so i dont eat when all foods were finished..hehehe..pity of me..and the price very expensive..but i have no choice..just eat or let your stomach empty..which one you prefer..huuhu..not have water supply just using takungan air hujan..sometime no current..no LCD..no science Lab..but im still can breathing..it just a small matter..just take it easy and positive =)

oh many things to share but my eyes wont let me to write more..k bye..continue later..
no matter what kind obstacle come..Just think of the positive side..so that life will go on meaningful even it does seems so..love your life and people around you..miss you abang..hahaha..sesat tiba2.. =p