im not on a right track..

im akind blur this few days and weeks..and everything seems tiring for me.. everything that i do not goes smoothly..many barrier..many obstacle..i dont know at last what will happen..i tried so hard to merry up my self as i can..but its seem like im smiling outside but im dying inside..hey people outhere.. do you know im not happy..im sad..im blur..i dont know what to do..i hate when i need to be somebody else..i hate ok..because i am who i am..

maybe i need a space and time for my self..and just ignoring people who close to me..do i need someone shoulder to cry on?..huhuhu..hey do you think by crying, it will help you..whatever..life is just like that..ALLAH please show me the right way..i need Your strength..because im not strong enough..and jauhi LIYANA..

i hate when i have a responsibilty..but i need to be responsible for what i have done..i can't change it or turning back time..i want to wake up tomorrow with a new spirit..forget about the pass n keep on trying..

p/s - eventhough im sad but i eat a lot lately..hehehehe...and i already have dandruff..wow thats great yana! sigh~

mOtIvAsi..

sumpah saya cakap saya sangat tiada semangat untuk PRAKTIKUM kali ini..boleh2 jam 10.30 sy dah ready ats katil..tiada preparation for teaching aids just using text book, work sheet and some materials..and usually i sleep before 12..too different with my first PRAKTIKUM..im always busy until late night prepared my teaching aids..cut and paste..and bla..bla..bla..i dont know how to manage my class..handle my students even plan my lesson plan..even though im already have experiences before this..but im still hesitate and blur..i dont know whats wrong with me..maybe environment of the school..maybe the facilities..maybe the students that for me sooo stubborn and not respect me as their teacher who stand in front of the class..and anything else..so many assumption..i dont know..tolonglah bagi ubat yang boleh buat saya bersemangat..huhuhu..

result exam dah keluar dan Alhamdulillah saya berasa bersyukur gan apa saya dapat walaupun turun 0.01 point..dan tidak mencapai target saya untuk dapat 3.80 keatas..tetapi sekurang2nya bukanlah tercorot, walaupun tidak yang terbaik..Thanx Allah for blessing me..dan saya perlu berkerja keras semasa PRAKTIKUM utk mencapai target saya kerana markah PRAKTIKUM juga di masukkan dalam final..

ok dua 2 rph untuk hari isnin..time to move on..yana tolong bersemangat..

sALoOn..

do you ever watch the movie of saloon..huhu..my friend suggest to watch it once upon a time..but i never and ever watch the movie and i dont know the movie is about what..k forget about the movie..i dont want to share about it, what i want to share here is about Lilian Saloon..

i dont know wherethere you want to belive or not..this is my second trip to saloon..hahaha..trip lg tu..first time i went to saloon when i was Year 4 and after that, i never go to the saloon again..and the price at that time is about rm5..my father brought me there to cut my hair since my hair was so long that time..

today i went to saloon for the first time since i came here..jill accompanied me..she wash her hair while me wash and cut my hair..im not prefer to have a very long hair because it so difficult for me to take care of it and since there always have water shortage here..so its just give me a burden to wash it..huhu

RM 24 i need to paid for the service..RM 20 for the cut..RM 13 for wash your hair..but wash n cut one package = RM 24.. RM 20 for cut your hair..i think little bit expensive if i compare the price at my place..i mean standard price at my place now just about RM 8..furthemore i just cut my hair with normal style..not very stylish and honestly my father can do this same as the aunty do..because usually my father cut my hair..ayah i love you..i miss you..but if i want my father cut it i need to buy flight ticket..huhuhu..so better i just do it here right..sometime not all what we wish or want, we can get it..huhuhu

while waiting for my turn..i took some pictures..hehehe

the real one

reflection
at front door
one of the customers..heheheheh

p/s - boy cut hair style..the cool one..i like it..huhuhuhu..and i love gray colour..ade ke rmbut org colour kelabu???t-shirt in gray colour..sweet la kan but hair in gray colour..so weird ma..hehehehe

nO rULeS..

Element – Cinta Tak Bersyarat

Cinta Tak Bersyarat - Element
*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net
tak ada sedikitpun sesalku
tak bertahan dengan setiaku
walau di akhir jalan
ku harus melepaskan dirimu, ooo

ternyata tak mampu kau melupa
dalamnya cintaku yg hebat
hingga ada alasan bagimu
tuk tinggalkan setiamu, ooo

reff: demi nama cinta
telah kupersembahkan hatiku hanya untukmu
tlah kujaga kejujuran dalam setiap nafasku

karna demi cinta
telah kurelakan kecewaku atas ingkarmu
sebab kumengerti cinta itu tak mesti memiliki

andai saja bisa kau pahami
layaknya arti kasih sejati
karna cinta yg sungguh
tiada akan pernah mungkin bersyarat, oooo

repeat reff

ternyata tak mampu kau melupa
dalamnya cintaku yg hebat

cHildHooD mOmEnt..

while waiting to Abang Said took us at school..i saw some of my pupils playing kite..this scenery remind me my childhood moment..

sometime i think my childhood moment not really interesting because i not live in village area..im always got jealous once i heard story of my friend childhood moment who live in village..they can played at paddy field, tarik upih, ketinting, guli, tembak2 kayu and etc..i never have experienced play this kind of game in my chilhood moment..Live at housing area i mean taman perumahan we just play bicyle, masak2 using set permainan that my mum bought it for me..huhuh..but i still enjoyed my childhood moment and miss it..

p/s - kenangan kanak-kanak selalu comel..

comel tak.comel kan...hehehe..perh masuk bakul angkat sendiri..ok berhenti menaip..hahaha

SAYA SAKIT HATI????

Sayang bahasa tidak boleh melebihi sayang bangsa..

The Government has announced that Mathematics and Science will be taught in Bahasa Malaysia starting 2012..

sy menonton pengumuman ni di TV kat bilik guru sementara menunggu waktu pulang..hari Rabu kami pulang antara jam 3.30 - 4.00 petang sebab da Unit Beruniform but since ada kem motivasi UPSR, dan sy free waktu itu..UB dibatalkan..

sy tidak la terperanjat tetapi tidak juga mejangkakan keputusan ini..secara jujurnya sebagai bakal pendidik yang bakal mengajar subjek Sains..dan bekas pelajar sekolah..sy menyokong usaha kerajaan dalam melaksanakan PPSMI..bg sy usaha ini untuk investment jangka masa panjang negara..

tp mugkin sebab2 tertentu terutama jurang pencapaian sekolah bandar dan sekolah pedalaman..mungkin wajar ia ditamatkan tetapi wajar juga untuk diteruskan..secara kasarnya boleh juga dikatakan sebagai permainan politik..tetapi terpulang kepada masing-masing untuk menilainya keberkesana dan kepentingan serta kekurangan PPSMI..

DR Mahathir said this..

22. Bahasa sesuatu bangsa akan dipelajari oleh orang asing jika bangsa itu amat maju dan terkenal dengan ilmu yang dimiliki dan diterokai olehnya. Demikian sebelum abad ke-15 Masihi orang Eropah terpaksa belajar bahasa Arab kerana tamadun Islam pada masa itu gah dan amat dihormati. Tetapi selepas orang Islam ketepikan sains, ilmu perubatan dan hisab, orang Eropah tidak lagi mempelajari bahasa Arab. Sebaliknya orang Arab dan Islam terpaksa belajar bahasa Eropah.

25. Penguasaan ilmu amat penting bagi masa depan seseorang. Janganlah kita perjudikan masa depan anak orang kerana kononnya kita seorang nasionalis yang begitu sayang kepada bahasa kita. Sayang bahasa tidak boleh melebihi sayang bangsa. Mereka yang sayang bangsa mereka ingin lihat bangsa mereka maju, berilmu dan dihormati dunia. Hanya kerana boleh bertuturkata dalam bahasa sendiri tidak akan menjadikan bangsa kita dihormati dan disegani orang.

26. Akan rosaklah bangsa dan negara jika dasar negara ditentukan oleh orang yang berdemonstrasi. Lebih rosak lagi jika yang berdemonstrasi didalangi oleh politik pembangkang.

and im totally agree with him..

p/s - kami bukan bahan experiment..PISMP Science Jan 07..